The dolls & their stories.

I am a mom. I made the doll to be fun, like me - wild, curly hair, colorful clothes, and funky jewelry. But it wasn't always like that. I remember times when it seemed there was no color or fun left in the world, as if my eyes had been blinded to the wonder of life. Replaced, instead, with blue and gray hues of sadness and sorrow and red slashes of anger. Then, I found something within myself. I found strength. I found character. I found purpose. I have a wonderful son, who is growing each day into a most incredible young man, and I am a part of that. My doll, therefore, represents the color and fun that has been returned to my life - the wonder of my son. Thanks so much for including moms in this project!! What an amazing opportunity for women to share their common experience with other women. MOM I am MOM. I cry real tears. I gave this to my son. He was just 4 days old when he nearly died because of what I gave him. It wasn’t my fault. I didn’t know I was a carrier. I am MOM. I watch in amazement as he grows each day. I stand back as he learns to care for himself. He is resilient. I am thankful he is otherwise healthy and has no complications. But I worry. Each and every day. That the blood product we put into his arm each month isn’t the treatment that takes him from me. I cry real tears. I am MOM Angie is a Caucasian woman who lives in Spring Arbor, Michigan.

Other family members diagnosed: brother-severe hemophiliac My name is Mary, mother sister, daughter and friend to all those whose heart is breaking because of bleeding disorders. I say, "Use your mouth to speak only truth and to teach love. Use your arms to reach out to one another and surround each other in love and weave your soul into others so that as the fabric of humanity we can ease the world's suffering.

I am just like a butterfly still in a cocoon. With love, time and lots of support from those around me, I will become a beautiful butterfly.

Be an advocate for yourself. Voice your concerns and don't give up. Educate your family members on your disease, you never know whenyou will need help, love, or support. "Give your loved one a hug today."

Oh, how I loved my brother. I still miss him after 52 years.

It's not about the amount of breaths you take it's about the moments that take your breath away. Don't forget to always keep your head up.

I do not have a mouth because no one will listen to me. Underneath my pretty dress, there is a Band-Aid - this signifies all the times I was given an "easy" fix instead of treating the problem. My dress and the lace trim signify that I am a woman first.

Doll Title: Leila Bleeding Disorder: Carrier Dance like no one is watching you!

One day, God came to me and said, "Shelley, I want to perform a miracle and cure you of your hemophilia and HIV." I said, "Thanks, but no thanks!" Although my hemophilia does not define me, it created who I am…a strong, empowered and spiritual woman who believes in miracles... I love that about me!

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Cindy comes from a long line of women bleeders. She never knew she was a bleeder until a near fatal surgery. Cindy was raised thinking all women had heavy periods and bruise easily. Now Cindy spreads the word educating as many as possible.

My name is Emily. I am 3 years old and have severe Factor I deficiency. Every other week I visit my doctor for a "poke" and get my factor replacement. One day there will be a cure, but until then I will get my magic medicine in order to feel well, go to school and play with my big sister.

She would say that she refuses to be a victim or sit around and complain about the way things are, so she stepped into a leadership position in her community and hasn't looked back since!

For years and years there were always dark clouds, but the sun will shine and answers will prevail. Instead of carrying dark clouds on my shoulder I can carry the sun.

Namaste means: The peace, love and goodness in my heart honors the peace, love and goodness in your heart. She is a Yogini-a student of yoga. The most blessed thing we can do in yogai is to serve. She teaches people about bleeding disorders, but by teaching, the teacher becomes the student. This girl has learned a lot about herself by serving others. She has a decorated belly because the things she learne and the friends she made in the bleeding disorders community helped her have the courage to face major surgery for an abdominal mass and to come out stronger and more alive than ever before. Namaste- she has no face because she does not have a bleeding disorder.

Help! Can't get my levels regulated, please help me and find another med that doesn't need levels tested weekly.

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Bleeding Disorder: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome Type X abnormal platelet aggregation factor 8/10 deficiency My doll doesn't let her bleeding disorder stop her from being the best dressed for a night of fun out on the town! She infuses through her port and is ready to rock and roll all night long. Therefore, her port is her best accessory, keeping her going and never being stopped from traveling and going out. Her motto is: infuse on the go!

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Doll Title: Rose Bleeding Disorder: Hemophilia Carrier with symptoms/ Factor IX Other family members: great grandma, grandma. Message: Hi, I am Rose and I am a symptomatic carrier. Doctor, please listen to me when I say I can't use blood thinners. And when I say O need some help. Please listen to me. Great Grandma & Grandma don't have a treatment center and the doctors ignore us. Please help so that Emilee doesn't have to go through what we did!

Venus says: Do you know how it feels to bleed and bleed until your lips and nose are numb? Do you know how it feels to be told “you just have heavy periods” and your heart tells you something else is wrong? Do you know what it’s like to pass clots the size of tennis balls with your menstrual period? Do you know how very tired you feel when your period lasts 30 days?Do you know what it’s like to be given a diagnosis for which there was not a brochure or pamphlet….absolutely no educational materials whatsoever? Do you know how scary it is to only be told “this is what you have” and “if something happens, a hematologist will know what to do”? Do you know how frustrating and frightening it is to be told “women don’t bleed”? Do you know how terrifying a place the world seems when no one believes or understands your medical diagnosis? Do you know how depressing all of this can be?* vWD stands for von Willebrand’s Disease. This is a bleeding disorder that is passed equally among men and women. The Goddess of vWD is a Caucasian woman who lives in Indiana. She is a force to be reckoned with in the bleeding disorders community. She is the author of numerous educational pamphlets available through the National Hemophilia Foundation. For more information call: 1-800-42-HANDI

I'm six years old and I wake up with blood on my pillow. It's very scary

Doll Title: Rose Bleeding Disorder: Hemophilia Carrier with symptoms/ Factor IX Other family members: great grandma, grand-daughter

I was made with love. I am a special woman. My bleeding disorder is a part of my every day life and everyone I meet accepts me just the way I am.

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Dr. helps people with HIV. African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0118

That you should not treat people with HIV different than you treat people without HIV! African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0119

Every Friday night I get all dressed up. I put on makeup, a fancy dress, a nice hat, and jewelry, and I just sit at home. I'm afraid to go out because I worry that people will know about me and laugh. I feel ashamed and depressed, so I just hide in my house looking elegant and refined. I'm all dressed up with no where to go. Caucasian -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0123

I wish I could heal the world. ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0125

I'm married! ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0132

There's always a way out so keep trying! African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-A/-0135

Hi my name is Aaron. I am a memory of when stigma overrode competent healthcare and education and when HIV was referred to as full-blown and a death sentence. I had friends and family, but my HIV status overwhelmed me and the words of stigma began to defeat me. I spent my life advocating for the Transgender Community and HIV. Now my friend works as an advocate in my memory.

You can survive with it! ID: ST-MIZ

Never give up on your dreams. If you put your mind to it, you can do or be whatever you want. African American, Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ

I hope you will be o.k.! ID: ST-MIZ

A blue moom is only good for once in a lifetime thing. I suggest everyone gazing their kind eyes upon my doll; just be careful, live wisely so your blue moon is a strength building ability to over come anything. Don’t feel sorry for me. Everyone just remember – anything can happen, even to you. So please SHUSH ignorance and scream education. Time are changing and advancing in ways to keep us healthy so we can live out our lives. Causcasian ,Grand Rapids, Michigan. ID: ST-MIZ

My doll would say that you're not the only person in the world who has the disease and that no matter what or where you go you will have support. ID: ST-MIZ

Doll has nothing to say. African American -Southfield, MI ID: ST-MIZ-B/-0117

Hello, I'm Reine. I was born with HIV because my mother was a drug user. It has been hard living with HIV and my feelings get hurt when people say mean and ignorant things about people with HIV. I take my medications like I should and I hope to live a long and happy life. African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-B/-0137

To get an education and don't have sex until they've grown and use a condom so you or anybody else won't get in a serious condition. ID: ST-MIZ

Stay positive no matter the situation. ID: ST-MIZ

Unknown Life is short so enjoy while you can. No matter what your status is this doll will be your #1 fan. African American, Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-C/-0156

I look fine on the outside but on the inside I'm broke, people judge me before they get to know me. I am sadbecause I don't have many friends but love to have fun, full of love, and love to be free! ID: ST-MIZ

This doll's name is The Motor City. She doesn't know if she is coming or going but the good thing is just have faith in yourself and everything will be alright!

My doll would tell you that she has cancer and was born blind and can't see. She can hear people talk to her. African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0120

Hi, Even though people have HIV you shouldn't treat them different. Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0127

That she is cute. African American -Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0129

Doll is speechless. Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0133

Have safe sex so you will have less a chance of getting HIV! ID: ST-MIZ

Don't have unprotected sex-because it can lead to HIV or other serious things. Black, Harper Woods, MI ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0143

No Real story No Face No Style Only Hope!! I Save people, but there's No Saving Me! ID: ST-MIZ-D/-0162

I hope you will be o.k.!!! De De or Lil' Mama ID: ST-MIZ

We all were made the same some different but we all should be treated the same. ID: ST-MIZ

I could be anybody. You never know who is and who isn't. Don't judge! ID: ST-MIZ

I would say please look at my beauty and see the pain that my dress covers up. I would like for the world to accept us/me for who I am. ID: ST-MIZ

My name is Faith. I am woman, I am strong and have HIV, although it does not DEFINE me it's only a part of me. I have a voice today!

I love myself. African American - Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-J/-0124

If you ever get a needlestick don't leave the clinic without prophylactic treatment, even if they say you don't need it.

Hey people life is good live life like it's your last. African American - Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-K/-0122

You are not alone, there are people who can be there for you. You have a lot of support. ID: ST-MIZ

When I was 5, I was molested by a close family member. When I was 10 I was raped by a friends Dad, then again when I was 11 I was molested by my friends Granddad. When I was 12 I was raped again. There's always a reason for why these things happen. For the people who are listening to this story I hope you know that these things are not your fault. ID: ST-MIZ

Let's go to the mall. African American -Westland, MI ID: ST-MIZ-L/-0130

"Women with HIV are burdened vessels who are courageous, powerful, strong, empathetic, and protectors of our families, but most importantly, women with HIV are worthy. I often think back to a day in the summer of 2001, 5 years after my diagnosis, when I watched the tall ships pass down the Detroit River. I think about what I have lost since and also what I have gained from my journey. I ponder the skills, craftsmanship, teamwork, endurance and courage required to build and sail those vessels in sometimes perilous seas. I am one of those tall ships; tenderly refit by the 'conquering heroes, the leaders and the best' at the University of Michigan who helped me to understand and appreciate that strength has a million faces, and one of them just might be mine." ID: ST-MIZ-M&-0104

The doll doesn't talk. ID: ST-MIZ

You are not alone, just pray and you will get through it….Have Faith! ID: ST-MIZ

Faith is the name I have given this doll because to live Life on a daily basis with this disease, you have to have faith in all sorts of things – Your own strength, wisdom, courage, integrity and sanity. I have lived with HIV for ten years now, and although I am grateful that there are more treatment options, it isn’t a picnic to take all this stuff. These drugs act very differently on women than they do on men, but few studies have been conducted to date to deal with those issues – and like so many other areas of women’s’ healthcare, may never be studied the way it needs to be. As a woman in this epidemic, we are seen as “vectors of disease” – don’t you dare think of becoming a mother, because you might infect that baby; don’t you dare think of becoming someone’s lover, because you might infect that poor man – these are the messages that get drilled in – internally as well as externally.You may ask why is Faith smiling? You live the life you choose – and you can either let all this bullshit get you down or you can wake up each morning, put your best foot forward and hope for love, peace and tranquillity to enter your day. And a HUGE sense of humor doesn’t hurt either… LTM is a consultant for the State Health Dept. in Michigan, as well as an activist, widow, and a champion of cause that deal with fairness for all persons, regardless of race, gender, or sexual orientation

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Doll has nothing to say. Southfield, MI ID: ST-MIZ-M/-0128

I give you people hope, courage, and be strong with HIV, take care (God Bless) Love ya African American -Southfield, MI ID: ST-MIZ-M/-0136

Believe in yourself, don't ever give up on what you believe, because you'll regret it later. ID: ST-MIZ-D

HIV is not something to play with you have to take care of yourself. ID: ST-MIZ

HIV changed my life it was very bad the first 3 1/2 years,but I went to God and he takes care of me, he never lets me down. My children and grandchildren play a big part too. I am a 42 year old Native American happy and living life to the fullest. Keep a rap on it, always protect yourself others may not always look out for your health. Ann Arbor, Michigan ID: ST-MIZ-M&-0104

Doll is speechless! ID: ST-MIZ-D

Don't have unprotected sex! ID: ST-MIZ

10/7/97 The doll is speechless! ID: ST-MIZ

Why? Why? Why? Why? Lets get a cure going on! Lets get busy! Lets live! Until we die. Be happy. Dont worry. African American, Detroit MI ID: ST-MIZ

Never have unprotected sex! ID: ST-MIZ

Don't ever give up, life is good. Keep your head UP! Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-R/-0173

The challenges might be hard but they make life interesting. Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-S/-0121

That I'm being a support for my little sister, but I need my own life and style. ID: ST-MIZ

Help me defeat HIV! ID: ST-MIZ

See me no different cuz we’re all the same …love, peace and happiness to all. Detroit, MI .

"I don't want to talk about it!" "Last year our support group had 25 women. Now we only have 13 left."

Getting an HIV test is a win-win situation. If the results are negative - you win. You know to continue safe sex. If the results are positive - you win. You know to seek treatment immediately.

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"Stop HIV in the Black Community!"

"Social Security takes too long." "Please heal me Jesus, Amen" "Because I get too tired and feel too weak." "And cure all the HIV and AIDS victims." "And I still get depressed because I want all my music recorded." "I don't want to be a failure God."

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Dress alive, Be proud of who you are. Be yourself everyone else is already taken. African American, Roseville, MI

"I don't want to talk."

Doll is speechless! Eastpointe, MI

Imani expresses her freedom and peace within herself. Although she may be HIV positive, she's free to be herself and at peace. Pontiac, MI

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When asked what her doll would say if she could talk, Ms. Wilson replied "Nothing."

Make your own style--be different (stay safe) African American, Detroit, MI

Please don't make the mistake I did. Because it's good to be safe than sorry.

No matter what goes on in life, live everyday like it's the last. Black, Harper Woods, MI

The goggles represent my only fear (water), and if I could defeat that, I would learn to swim. The pink ball is my stress ball. (Kids, husband, illness) The white flower represents my grandmother, who passed before I could show her my most prized gifts (my talent in music, my kids, husband and how if she was here. I don't think I would be in this situation. The dress represents whatever I put on, I feel beautiful. The necklace is my favorite jewellery (chokers). The lips, represent what I get the most compliments on. The shoes represent my crazy shoe game. Don't let the arts and crafts fool you!

Be a star! Don't smoke! African American, Detroit, MI

My doll's name is Love Me for Ever because I need to feel and want of someone else, to know I am need always and forever so have me as I was real ok.

Don't want to say nothing. Detroit, MI

If my doll could talk she would say…Dare to be different. Never do something because others are. Be a role model, don't follow in line like others.

After the death of my one true friend, trying to save her life. I unwillingly put myself in harms way. I too at first thought I was to lose my life. But with grace of God and his purpose for me I'm still here. After 11 years of loneliness I know longer feel alone and this is truly a blessing. I only wish I found this sooner. A wish for others to not have to wait so long. It's been a long journey and hopefully my life after a death may make someone else's not so long.

HIV does not define who I am! Nor does it determine what I will and can do! I am still the same person I was before I was diagnosed. I still deserve, need, and want love!

It do what it do.

As you can see, I am made of different shapes, colors and things. That means, I am a representative of all women. Right now, I'm representing my sister who is HIV positive. African American, Michigan

Although initially devastated, I became transformed with love and support, hence the butterfly which represents transformation.

God loves me so much and people. Detroit, MI

Even if your infected you can still express yourself. Detroit, MI

I learned more about HIV and AIDS and being more careful by creating this doll.

I am life. I love, laugh and live to be happy and share happiness.

I am a 40 year old African American female who became HIV infected through a sexual assault. I felt my world had been destroyed and felt utterly alone. But through the love of my family and my faith in God and prayer I have a better appreciation for Life. I have learned that Life has lessons to be learned, but if you have not learned from them then Life can pass you by. I have put trust in God that a cure will be found for HIV/AIDS. I also feel that God has some more tasks and challenges he wants me to face before he calls me home. When he does call me home and ask what I have done with my life... I can respond with great joy and gladness that I lived my Life to it's fullest. That's the advice I give to my friends and family - Live Life to it's fullest! Detroit, MI

I unique, different and human. Pontiac, MI

Be strong in life and take care of your body and health. Detroit, MI

Talking to all my sisters about how important it is to take your meds everyday for the rest of your life, because you don't have to die from it. Something else can kill you. Eat right, live right and live a long time with this monster called, HIV-AIDS. Life is too sweet and short to be ill.

I believe that we need to be a more compassionate and understand world. We need to educate ourselves more about HIV/AIDS. Through education we would learn that all people with HIV/AIDS need our love and support. We still have 40,000 people in America becoming infected with HIV each year. That is 40,000 too many! This is now a preventable disease so we should only have a handful of new cases each year. It is a human tragedy that we need to end. Through all the pain and suffering that HIV/AIDS brings, I still believe that we all need to have a smile and believe that God will bring us the hope that we need. Rural, MI

You should be careful so you don't get HIV. African American, Detroit, MI Don't have sex it will lead to more like getting pregnant and/or a STD. Detroit, MI

Hello, I am a daughter, a sister, a wife and a mom. And I am HIV positive. I have been for at least 14 years now. In 1983 I met the man of my dreams, my first love. He told me he was a hemophiliac. I didn't know what that was nor did I care. I just knew that whenever he got hurt real bad we would go to the hospital where they gave him stuff called Factor VIII because his blood would not clot. We did not know that the stuff that was saving his life was going to take his life and mine - in time. We married in 1985 and had a son who is healthy. His father and I divorced but remained good friends. I met my current husband in 1987 and we married in 1992. Then in 1997 I found out that I was pregnant. We had used protection but it was not foolproof. I finally went to a doctor about my HIV status and my pregnancy. He checked my blood. My viral load was 30,000 and my T cell count was 642. I was lucky because I never had taken any medicines. I also never wanted to know my status in this disease. I was then put on AZT during my pregnancy. Ultimately I had my son and he was a healthy baby boy. I am now on the "great" cocktail. My viral load is non detectable. My T cell count is up and down. I can't lead a normal life because of the side effects: headaches, diarrhea, and numbness in my feet. It's like living with the stomach flu every day of your life. Only my family knows I am HIV positive. I have seen how people treated my ex-husband and I can't take that. We lost him, my oldest son's father, earlier this year. He will always be in my heart. I can never tell my son that I am HIV positive. A 13 year old boy can only handle so much. Well, this is my story. Always remember to hug the ones you love. You never know when your last chance will be.

Don't have sex at a young age. Eastpointe, MI

Stay safe … Roseville, MI

I'm a winner; I am pleased to say that I'm in total control of my life; I have HIV, and HIV doesn't have me.

She symbolizes all the important things and people who have made her what she is today. She is naked, vulnerable. Except for the ever-present BIOHAZARD. The wild, colorful hair represents her many moods, fears and feelings. Her mouth speaks of AIDS Awareness. Around her neck and shoulders are the people who love, support and nurture her. In her arms she holds her daughter who has witnessed everything. She is bound and tied by events of the past and present. The bed signifies the place where HIV entered her life. The red box is filled with her husbands ashes and bloodstone speaks of his hemophilia. The mirror symbolizes the reflections of society.

Never have sex until you're grown. Detroit, MI

If Lisa could talk she would say; faith & belief in yourself is the key to living, if the Little African Children can do it, anyone can too.

Even though I'm 18 years old, people look at me and just see someone that dresses nice. I see them talking but I say nothing. It's turning my hair grey. Never judge a book by its cover!!

Doll is speechless! Ann Arbor, MI

Hello! My name is Phoenix. I am called Phoenix because I have been knocked down to nothing but ashes and rose again over my trials and adversities such as sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse, and homelessness. But just when I thought I was soaring high like a bolt of lightning, I was hit with the news that I was HIV positive. I found that this was the hardest blow. Thinking that I would not rise this time. This attack came from the man I loved, my husband. But through the grace of my god, Jehovah, husband, daughter, and friendship of women who I met through the positive support group such as the one at Wellness, I have risen again. Stronger and Better than before. You can do it too! Love, Phoenix

The things a woman have to go through in order to look nice for her date.

Lucky I lived for everyone I love. When I was diagnosed clinically with AIDS, I was angry at God and blamed him for my misfortunes. I had the power to make the correct choices, but I didn't. People have disclosed my status without my permission devastated me and hurt me to my heart, but I will survive. I'm as strong as a soldier. I m the Soldier of Life: Lucky I lived For Everyone I love. I finally seen the light, and people at Wellness AIDS Services, Inc. of Flint, MI came to my home, "kidnapped" me, and told me I was going to the women's support group. I met a lot of beautiful women who had ambition and are doing great things with their lives. I realized that everyone and everything has a purpose. Wellness gave me my life back. The women in women's group have built each other's self-esteem emotionally, and we never judged each other. Men and women at Wellness, especially those who have been diagnosed, need to build each other's self-esteem emotionally for support, and never judge each other. Sometimes the world disappoints me. Society judges what they don't know about. Even though I show happiness and joy on the outside, on the inside I'm suffering. For everyone who has this "stereotypical" virus deserves the military ribbon/metal, the Purple Heart, which is what the military receive when they are injured. Our hearts have been broken and injured, but it takes strong, courageous people to overcome the HIV/AIDS virus. I now have a happier, new life with a significant other. When I was at my lowest he was there for me. He gave me what nobody else did; unconditional love, care, and protection. In closing, I am the first female soldier doll in the STITCHES program. I'm honored to feel that everyone living with HIV/AIDS are all Soldiers of Life. You are a great bunch of people.

After being diagnosed 3 years ago, HIV positive. I needed help coping with my family. I was afraid, angry, lonely, and depressed. I joined a women’s support group through Wellness AIDS Services, Inc. in Flint, Michigan. Feeling as though you are the only one in the world who is going this makes matters worse. So they helped me by putting me in touch with others in my same position and by keeping me up to date on helpful information about our disease. Support groups can offer important help by allowing you to blow off steam in a safe place where others have gone through what you are going through. And accept you without being critical.

He's energetic and wants everybody to stay safe when in a relationship. African American, Harper Woods, MI

Think about what you are doing with your life. African American, Detroit, MI

Doll is speechless!

Mommy, how did I get positive? Be sure and use condoms! Medicine tastes NASTY. Detroit, MI

Doll is speechless! Detroit, MI

You must always protect yourself from everything and anything. Novi, MI

I am no longer dying from this disease of HIV, I am now living with HIV. I am at peace with myself.

Don't have sex it will lead to more like getting pregnant and/or a STD. Detroit, MI

To survive out in the world is to be safe. (Have safe sex)

Young men please get tested wrap it up!

Living in the same household as my mom and she has HIV is so normal. I love my mom so much and what my doll says is to never give up and be who you want to be. African American, Southfield, MI

Everyday, I look at my mom and I see a beautiful woman. Knowing inside she is fighting HIV. Despite my mom having HIV she is still standing, healthy and alive. I love you mom! Never Give Up! African American, Southfield, MI

My dream of being an occupational therapist will be achieved. I have HIV, HIV does not have me.

She would say: Grow up to be a strong and powerful hearted person and make the world a better place. Harper Woods, MI

Love yourself to the fullest, my journey with HIV has taught me to fall in love with me! To accept myself for all my faults and celebrate the great things about me! In my arms is 6 roses for my babies I hold dear to me. I have on shades because my Future is Bright. My mouth is big because I want to educate and empower women everywhere. I'm sexy and sassy and fabulous! When the road was dark on my journey I knew God would see me through 34 years of Sunshine! For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans to prosper you and give you hope and future.

It was hard to do, but I liked making my doll.

Living today with two sides of me is difficult…wanting everybody to see this beautiful side of me…but is reflected on a more serious side called, "HIV" Just want everybody to know, don't judge the outside because what inside is what "Matters." Detroit, MI

Look at me, I am still human, I am here to live. Don’t fear me, but embrace me, cause I will live. Detroit, MI

So what if my dress is long or my eyes green, respect me for who I am. So what if my hair is gray and I don't agree with you, this is who I am, he made me this way, and I'm sure that I am a work in progress every day. PEACE!!

Lets go camping.

I will not keep silent! I will go to the King and if I perish I perish for I have come to the kingdom for such a time as this!

A tribute to my sister. African American, Inkster, MI

Detroit, MI

I believe in myself to fight the battle of cancer.

My sisters, love yourselves, believe in your instincts And realize we can trust no one 100% My risk factor was that I fell in love and trusted someone With my life and failed to protect myself. If you have apprehensions of your mate's sexuality - listen to your heart. We are responsible for our own behaviour and choices in life.

My name is REALITY. REALITY is that I am a survivor. REALITY is that I have 4 sons that were not born with this disease. REALITY is that HIV and AIDS are not curable. REALITY is you need to accept responsibility for safe sex. REALITY is that I have had HIV for 11 years with no meds. REALITY is that I am BLESSED and have FAITH. REALITY is that I am still alive to carry the message. REALITY is practice safe sex.

Living with HIV isn't always bad. If I listen to my doctor and take my treatments faithfully I can recover.

I am beautiful in my own unique way. It feels good to have a voice.

For someone that has had three sex partners, why me? I have had two husbands and one one-time sex partner. I was never a street person, why me? I was always a housewife, why me? But I still will try to live as long as I can with Jesus' help.

Detroit, MI

When this woman was give the opportunity to express what her doll would say about living with HIV, she chose to say nothing.

I feel lonely all the time. It feels like no one cares. When I'm in a place with friends I'm their but I feel invisible. It feels like people can see right through me. The D represents the depression I feel. The broken Heart is how much love and hate is in my body. The flowers represent how many people have broken my heart and have tried to repair it.

No matter what happens you can always have your wedding day. Detroit, MI

Sarah would say, "My hair is gone, butI don't let it make me live my life any less." African American, Detroit, MI

When are we going on a trip?

I've been thrown a lot being born HIV positive and learned that. I just love life and live it to the fullest. Detroit, MI

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I love shopping! ID: ST-MIZ-T/-0126

I have no where to go. Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-T/-0131

The apple of my grandmommies eyes. ID: ST-MIZ

I was born with HIV and I didn't find out until my 13th birthday and I want to spread my awareness! ID: ST-MIZ

No matter what is going on or your medical condition, you should still feel beautiful! ID: ST-MIZ

To be careful of what you do and protect yourself fully by not having sex at all because we need to stop all the STD's. Mostly black people end up getting HIV from stupidity and not knowing to ask questions, don't have sex, or get help. ID: ST-MIZ

Doll doesn't say anything! ID: ST-MIZ

I don't have HIV or AIDS but I would like to prevent AID's/HIV/ Safe sex and be safe. ID: ST-MIZ

My dolls name is Faith. She represents God's word in faith. I have faith that I can conquer HIV. My doll and I know faith can break all things that we go through in life. I can disclose anything to my doll. We can talk about all of my concerns related to HIV, in life, now I can handle it. Thank God for Faith. ID: ST-MIZ

Fire represents the flames I've been through in the past eight years. In the year 2000, I became homeless with six children. At the end of the year my youngest was born. I then began working at Meijer. Then my ex-husband decided after all these years he wanted custody of my oldest 4 children. This was very traumatic for me. I still remained strong, I felt as if it was mandatory for the sake of my younger 2 children. In 2001, I was living in a hotel with my 2 children, as well as my then boyfriend of 4 years soon after we broke apart. In 2002, I found a new home for my family. Things finally started going great. I met someone new I hadn't been that happy for such a long-time. In 2005, I received a devastating phone call from the nurse at the health department. She requested to have a private meeting with me as soon as possible. I soon found out that I was positive. In the beginning, I had so many mixed feelings. Today I view life much differently. I now see each day is a true blessing. I was a single mom just getting back into the dating game. The condom broke and let me inform you this is no joke. Suddenly my life changed right before the blink of my eye. So if you think because you don't live the wildlife, or a gay lover that this can't happen to you please think again. Grand Rapids, MI ID: ST-MIZ

Hi I'm just a Christian like person that loves Jesus Christ. Would you like to be like me, talk to a Pastor about becoming a Christian.

My name is Miracle and I was infected through Rape! White-Indian - Bronx ID: ST-NYZ-M/-0249

Keep moving with a positive attitude. New York City ID: ST-NYZ-P/-0229

I have been diagnosed since '91 and I want to be here to see my son graduate from high school. African American, Bronx, NY

Titile: Allison Birth Date: June 3, 1948 I looked for Love in all the wrong places from the wrong people…But instead HIV became an uninvited guest. Wait on love and persevere, last but not least dream. Until true love is revealed. Keep hope Alive… Bronx, NY

I was diagnosed with HIV because I had unprotected sex with my partner who was HIV+ and didn't tell me. Please get tested! Practice safer sex (always use a condom) African American - Bronx

"Women" A population not responded too! African American - NY

In defense of my sisters that have no voice, I bring to the world the wealth of the future. In doing so I know that today’s leaders have no choice except to follow. Bronx

I am a mother of 3 children. I am a sushi chef. My youngest son died of HIV/AIDS. HIV is not a death sentence. Now a days people live longer. There is no cure, but it is under control.

No importante que esta positiva porque puede tener nino negativo. Para meyor salud no fuma, no bebe alcool. Toma tu medicamentos, y hace gercios todo los dias. Tiene comer cosas sin grasas para cuidar a su salud. TRANSLATION It's important that this child may have positive as negative. For health reasons do not smoke, or drink alcoholic. Take your medications, and be gracious for every day, Of eating fat-free things to take care of your health. Hispanic- Bronx

Carolyn died before she finished her doll, but her sister gave permission for her doll to join the "STITCHES: A Doll Project" journey. As soon as Carolyn began her doll, she said, "She's got to have a crix belly like me."All through her illness Carolyn grieved the changes in her body and talked about being scared. The doll has a big heart just like Carolyn, who was always thinking of others and spoiling us with her incredible fried chicken. We remember her wonderful laugh, warm smile, jaunty hats and tremendous strength. With love from her doll-making sisters of the Positive Mom’s Support Group in Westchester County, NY

It's never too late to be what you might have been! Puerto Rican - New York

I am a wonderful woman that loves everyone and loves to help others who I care about, but not too much care for me. But I put it on God's hands. And I look down on them. Cuz I still love them and everyone else. I want everyone in the world to take care of themselves and love those people. Cuz we are still the same show us love always. The same way. I will love you. Don't treat me different cuz I won't hurt you. Just love you. Make sure you're safe if you do anything. Safe sex--don't want to hurt anyone.

Knowing you have the virus is hard. But living with AIDS is easy for me since I have been fortunate to have a lot of support from my family and friends. That support alone made me not ever want to give up! African-American - New York City

Hi my name is Diamond and I am here to support all of you with laughter and support. I love to make you smile. African American - Bronx

I am sorry. Peace out. Bronx, NY

I wish we had a better day, we are at war today and I hope not tomorrow. I have HIV, diabetes, plus cellulitis and abscesses – but the abscesses are clearing. Today I started going to therapy so that soon I will be able to walk out of here. It feels great to be getting better. I have been in here for 3 years. I am ready to start walking. I take on day at a time.

This virus is trapped in my body, it will not go away. The doctor says, "You are undetected." But I am still infected! So I am confused. And all balled up.

Genesis finding out I'm HIV+ is a new beginning. I have been taking care of my health better than before. I eat right exercise and take my medicine every day.

I feel like an Indian at war, War within myself. Each fight is harder AIDS is, as the Indians would say, The evil shadow. Cast them out. So my doll is dancing. Casting all my demons away. African, Mexican Indian and Jewish decent who lives in Yonkers, NY.

I want to spread peace and happiness to the less fortunate and the suffering. Having HIV you can still live. You don't have to die anymore. I don't live with HIV, HIV lives with me. African American- Bronx

God, help people with AIDS through love and happiness.

Believe in God, he heals all!

Love always.

We are all one people. So why can't we all just get along? God is love and love is God. So let's start loving one another. African American-Bronx

My doll and I are alike as any friends. We agree we suffer when some see us like lepers. If she could talk I know she would really like to travel the world and educate others. Ukrainian- New York City

My name is Hope because without it we are lost. Also when one is sick if you let go of hope than little by little you lose your life, but hope gives purpose. Hope only lives if you want it to LIVE! Latina, Bronx, NY

To all the women out there. Stand firm to pursue your life dreams. No matter what you go through you will always survive. African American - Bronx

Josie is The Queen of the Sauder Family. She walks with her mother with her head up. She is at peace. Black, Bronx, NY

This doll is speechless.

She would say that the world could only get better if there was more charity among people of all groups and ages.

HIV is a virus that says you must take your medicines every day – because if you don’t you will die. I feel that taking them every day can be a hassle but it is necessary. It keeps me looking and feeling my very best with the disease. I feel like the woman I am today.

Don't use drugs. Love yourself and respect yourself. Mexican/White - New York

My name is Creation, I may create life too many, I create love amongst the world. I want people to love one another as we were created to do. Let my creation give the sun light. Let my creation help the moon to set. To create you must protect yourself and others. Let the love of creation shine bright. Brooklyn, NY

People can avoid getting the virus by testing yourself. Don't have sex unless you know your partner's HIV status. Don't let things bring you down. Enjoy life the best you can. Puerta Rican -Manhattan

I thank God because I'm not sick and I haven't had to take any medication in the last 5 years. African American - Bronx

I am leaving my doll naked - with the letter "A" standing for AIDS. A poison runs through my veins. I am Contagious - you can love me from afar but not intimately. I am reminded several times a day - every time I take my AIDS medicine, every time my T cell and viral load is taken. I have to be careful what I eat. Don't cry for me because I have AIDS. Find a cure and help those with AIDS. She hugs her teddy bear because she needs to love.

Are you on you way to Hell with Heroine on your mind? Do you know where your going when you die? God sent his son to die so we could be saved. Death is only physical not spiritual. Caucasian-Bronx

Feed Me!

My name is Sexy Momma. Because I walk the streets. And get money. I feel so bad. Because now I have HIV. I am going to be good from now on. I take my meds everyday.

I want you to know even though I'm positive I love to look good and feel good. I love to smile and stay happy so enjoy my radiant style. Your thought process changes your life. Indian/Black, Bronx, NY

My name is Sarah Lee not HIV. I live with HIV, empower yourself, protect yourself, remember to Love yourself Get tested!

Being that I am living with the virus I feel very happy that I am healthy because they take great care of me here at the nursing home. At times I become angry being in this situation yet I must survive and with faith I face each day. I thank each and every staff member at the nursing home for their patience and attentiveness in taking care of me. Hispanic - New York City

Hope whatever you do don't give up hope. Because always remember there is hope in things you do. Whatever you put your mind to do you can do it. Just don't give up. You can make it happen, just do what you have to do to make it happen, don't give up hope! African American - Harlem NY

Even though I'm deaf in both ears, I can see, I can speak. My eyes help me see better and understand better the world. Spanish/English - New York City

I made my doll a gypsies because I feel like I'm coming and going constantly. I feel like I've always been a caregiver and I still am. As a person living with HIV I feel my life has changed dramatically. I went from living a normal life with few worries to a person hoping and praying constantly to see the next day.

The veil keeps me protected and from seeing the harsh realities of life and it keeps the harsh realities from seeing me. African American -Brooklyn

My doll is happy. Latina - Bronx

What up.

I live my life my way. If I forget where I come from, I haven't been there for the last time! Not going back--I want to shine! Hispanic - Bronx

Don't be alone because we have a lot of people who love us. Dominican Republic - Bronx

Don't be afraid to say that abuse does occur to individuals with HIV. Bronx

Do not let love blind you, practice safer sex. Love yourself- mind, body, spirit.

I’ve been positive since 1998 and I’m still here to tell my story. I appreciate everything this agency has done for me. At first I was scared, thought my family would reject me – had no one to talk to. Yet they treat me no differently than before I told them I had the virus. I’m blessed with a supportive family. I am not afraid any longer because I am not alone in this… Thank you for listening. Hispanic - New York City

Hello my name is Cindy and I am wearing orange top with yellow. I just want to say to everybody to be very happy and be very careful with your life. You only have one life to live so be careful with it. Give you life to God. African American - Bronx

I am pure and delight that's why I am dressed in white. My eyes are bright to see your heart with HIV all day and night. When you look at me some times I look at you and other times I just want to bless you. New York City, NY

Hello. Be careful and always be safe. Enjoy life, don't take anything for granted. Hispanic - New York NY

Love me don't let HIV keep you away from a Great Love. Bronx

May everything you touch be filled with love and keep your head up. Bronx

Always protect yourself you can't look at people and know they have HIV. African American - Queens

Hi my name is Destiny. Remember that to have love and be in love is a beautiful thing. But also remember this my name is Destiny. Do you know the meaning of Destiny. If you do, remember this, having unprotected sex is playing with your life's Destiny. Always remember his. Don't play with yours or anyone else’s Destiny. African American - New York City

My name is Ella. I am HIV positive and have 4 children born HIV negative. Please protect yourself. And if you are pregnant please protect your unborn child. Stick to the doctors HIV regimen. Please make your OB/GYN aware of your status so they can help your baby be born healthy. Eat healthy stay healthy with the right medical attention. If you love your baby, please love your body and take care of yourself and your unborn child. African American, Bronx, NY

Shattered Dreams Dear HIV You shadowed my future with a bridge I cannot cross. I had been waving and waving fr you to help me cross over. But all is in vain because you now hold me in bondage where it is impossible to escape. You now rule my body like a political dictator and I long for freedom. You have destroyed my dreams of becoming a medical technologist. Even dreams of becoming a mother, a maternal grandmother, and see my heritage expanding from one generation to another. You made me regret being a phlebotomist because then I wouldn't have you In my body destroying my Immune defense system. I now live in the shadow of anxiety and regret. I can only find comfort and hope,Hope for a cure. And I hope that I am on a journey and when my destination arrives God will call my name and I will be waiting so patiently. For I will be going to a better place a place for eternity Where there will be no more suffering but happiness and joy forever. In the meantime I hope for a cure. Keep your hopes high,D on't give up.

It is better to know than to not know--get tested it saves lives! Puerto Rican - Bronx

No matter what you go through in life you are beautiful! You are as beautiful as you feel! Laugh, Live, Love Life! African American- Bronx

What the hell am I doing here? I am in a wheelchair and I want to get out!I want to walk. I used to walk. I don’t like the wheelchair because I feel very confined. What the hell am I doing here?? African American - New York City

My name is Sojourne. I'm a very nice person, who gives love to anyone who needs love. New York City, NY

My voice was taken from me when I wasn't given a choice to decide to be +.

Don't have unprotected sex, don't share drugs (meaning needles) and use a new condom every time!

I've been living with HIV for 20 years and I pray that they find a cure for all real soon. I am a loving person and I try to help anyone that needs anything at any time. Bronx, NY

I am black and beautiful and undetectable. It's important to take your meds.

I wish to live outside the nursing home. I want my own place but I take so much meds every day. I’d like to get up and go but I can’t. Caucasian - New York City

My name is "Fancy". At least that is the way I used to feel when I was getting ready for a night out on the town with my friends. Now, since this miserable damn virus has invaded my space/body, feeling and looking "fancy" is the least of my concerns. All I feel now is old, used up, useless and ugly. No matter how anyone tries to cheer me up, it doesn't help. No matter what medications I take to so-called help me with my depression, they don't help. And on top of all this, my poor little baby girl died 2 years ago. She was only 3 years old. Why do these horrible things have to happen? I guess God only knows. That's why I pray to him every day to please help me feel "fancy" again. New York City

Because of the mental state of this artist she was unable to express her own feelings about living with HIV/AIDS. She simply said “Hello.” African American - New York City

I am a mom with a little girl named Miracle and we are living with AIDS/HIV. I sometimes want to give up on life but my baby gives me hope, strength and courage. I am strong and we will go on a long time. I learned that regardless of our problems, we Are human and we are somebody! Caucasian - New York City

At first it was hard for me to deal with my illness but in the past two years my health has improved and I am on my way to living my life independently.

Dusty Roy Gaytsoll – 11/13/68 – 6/25/02 Question: If I had it to do over again, what would I do differently? First of all, I was not infected with HIV/AIDS. I was affected. My son had AIDS. At first I was mortified, flabbergasted and all the strong verbs you could think of. Then I cried, prayed, asked God for guidance and understanding, and “He” gave it to me. “He” gave me a route that changed me forever. I lost a 12 year relationship with a man that told me my son could not come home and I could not take care of him, or he was gone. So be it. I moved to the next phase, my son. This young man was ill and needed me, and as I come to find out, so did some others. But he was my son, a child cut from my body. So we settled down for 10 years of groups, doctor visits, medicine changes, lots of tears, a few words of frustration, several I’m worries, and lots of hugs and kisses. Even evictions from an apartment. Over the years our home housed 5 different AIDS patients; Liz, my son’s girlfriend, Tanya a girl from a wealthy Philipino family where sge didn’t fit with her life style, an illegal from Mexico who needed to stay with us until his counselor could get him into a facility, and 2 other gentlemen who needed to stay until they were placed. I learned love, loving, giving, sympathy, empathy, compassion, humbleness, humility, and much more. I’m not saying it was easy because it wasn’t always. Not was it always lots of joy. But we all got through. nd My son died June 25, 2002 at St. Mary’s Hospital in Tucson, Arizona. We went for his 2 chemo treatment. He had lymphoma. It spread through his body 27 days after he was diagnosed. So, what would I do different if I had it to do over again? Nothing! I would go through it pretty much the same way. Oh maybe, a few little changes like knowing what to expect. But all in all I’d do it again. I’m 63, a retired Social Worker just doing what I want to. Caucasian ,Casa Grande, Arizona. ID: ST-MIZ

Silent was not allowed to be part of society, not speak or be spoken to. As she grew, unaware of events in society, she hadn’t a care of them. She looked and listened without seeing or hearing, didn’t feel or think. She was just there, a part of a world but never belonging. She feared being seen or spoken to. It was too painful, cause it was against all she had learned. Silent believes she finds Hope in becoming a part of society through alcohol and marijuana, later intervenous drug use. She loses her teacher (father), becomes alone but her society takes her to a new world behind bars, she accepted it because the drugs still lived within these walls. She shared needle, still unaware of an outcome unknowing of HIV. One day the doctor tells Silent she is HIV positive. Silent asked the doctor, “So I’ll have to take medicine a week or so?” Doctor informs Silent of HIV. Silent is scare and loses Hope. Silent stops drugs, but continues alcohol, more and more to forget living a life of death. Organizations – Native American – seek her out, looking for Silent on the streets, on the railroad tracks, at her jobs. Silent wonders why they want me. Silent is already dead without Hope. She seeks them out because the wondering of why pulls her to that direction. She learns she is not alone and that there is Hope. Silent finds a new world, new Hope, and a new Life. She learns to look, listen, and hear. She instills in her life not to be seen or heard, this is why Silent hasn’t a mouth. Regrets, many, but Hope lifts Silent through it all. So Silent is no longer alone. She has two families, two worlds. Full of support and love that instill love, faith, and hope in overcoming all. Silent knows one day a cure will be found. But Death alone has no hold on her, through Christ her Lord, who truly lifts her to her real Father. Native-American , Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

This artist had the following message Life Is Good! Hispanic Queen Creek, Arizona. She made her doll in the sitting position because she is confined in a wheelchair. ID: ST-MIZ

I’m Kennedy. I am an artist and hippy. I grew up in the seventies and I really never have conformed to this day and age. Some can say I’m Old School too. I love to sing at home and in the shower and especially in my car! My daughter who is twelve, thinks I can not dance but says I’m still a cool parent. She is my heart. Without her or my older son I don’t know how I could have survived my diagnosis of AIDS, which was November of 2004. I now am healthy and undetectable. Life just keeps getting better and better by choices I make and the positive changes I am making in my life. Two weeks ago I became a grandma. Two years ago I never thought I’d live to see this day. It was such a joyous and perfect day. I need to know that I am making a positive change in someone else’s life also, I do this when I am out doing what I love doing best. And that is educating my peers about the importance of taking an active part in our own Recovery. This is the rest of our life we are talking about…I can still be creative. Hispanic ,Scottsdale, Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

I was raised in the Midwest. HIV/AIDS is a disease of my children’s generation. I was careless, now I’m scared! I have HIV! I’m still a mom, a woman, a friend, a co-worker. I still have HIV, I’m not scared now, I’m aware! I’m living with, not dying from HIV. Knowledge is power! Now I know… Caucasian, Phoenix, Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

A Life-I am a minority woman who was infected with AIDS by my husband, also my abuser, at 21 years of age. I chose to become a single parent, with two baby girls, who were not infected. I remember being very sick mentally, physically, and emotionally behind the abuse. Today I am a new woman with goals and dreams. I no longer accept abuse in my life. I know I am worthy of love, respect, and support. I now choose to have people around me that will bring these qualities into my life. I now live in Phoenix, Arizona and have remarried. My spouse, who is not infected, is a man who is kind, loving, and understanding. I have never known these attributes bit I know I am worthy of them. I also chose a career to help women, like myself, so they can make better choices in their lives. It’s important to let them know that they still have a life…even after HIV. When life isn’t working the way you’d like, look at the situation as an opportunity on the road to your success. Follow any negative by taking a look at your B.A.G.B is for Blessings. Remind yourself of the things you are grateful for like life itself, your health, family, friends, career. A is for accomplishments. Focus on the many things you have done and many things you do daily that you are proud of. G is for Goals. Review your dreams and plans for the future often. This is the fuel that will motivate you. See yourself as already having what you seek. Always view any negative as part of one performance, not as a turn-down of the performer. African-American and Puerto Rican ,Phoenix, Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

Doll is speechless! African American - Dallas, TX ID: ST-TXZ-M/-0024

My name is Amelia and I am HIV+.When I was first diagnosed I thought my life was over and I gave up everything I love. After several years of educating myself and through Now I have learned how to the support and love of friends, I was able to turn my attitude around. Now I have learned how to co-exist with the virus and I am changing my life. Once again I am doing things I love which includes flying airplanes . I had to fight The Federal Aviation Association (FFA) to allow me to keep my license while taking anti-HIV drugs but it was worth it for me and I was able to help others who were also facing with being grounded. I have a beautiful daughter (The Pink Princess)and we enjoy each and every day together. I encourage anyone who is HIV+to take charge of thing sand work at maintaining good health. Having Joy in your life will keep you alive. NC ID:ST=NCZ-CC-0294

This is written for all the women of the world that have found themselves in situations, conditions, or even misconceptions of who we really are. Lots of care is being taken to use the dolls in various settings to help each of us understand, rationalize, and adjust to old wounds in our lives, that keep us from being the woman that we were meant to be. I’m dying, I’m dying, I’m dying Is there anyone crying? Who gives a care, is anybody there? Dying from trying… Trying to fight… Trying to hang in there Trying to make it to tomorrow, only sorrow from trying and I’m still dying Dying from poor education, dying from neglect Dying from lack of touch, lack of sensation Dying from no one caring, caring, caring… Caring for what, for whom? Caring about when, caring for what Caring, well! Sure I’m caring… I care for football, basketball Who won the Olympics, the Fiesta Bowl, the World Series, also the Super Bowl You said caring… Is this not enough caring… What sitcom will win the prize for the best of the year? What actor will win the Grammy? Just who will take home the Oscar? Who’s the “best” dressed celebrity? Whose recording is the best? Who married whom? I care about who cheated on whom, Who got caught, who got away… What’s the latest gossip in town? Who died? Who will be immortalized? Will we go to war? What’s the highest priced car? What’s the color for this year? What and where are the best land & homes to buy? Tell me again that I don’t care… You see I care about the things that matter to me, So, if you’re dying, I will not be the one crying So keep on dying, I‘ll keep caring about only the things that matter to me… No caring for humanity No crying for the motherless child No caring for the old man that lives under the bridge… No crying for the woman who lost her only child to war So go on trying, crying, or even dying because I won’t be here. Black woman ,Phoenix, Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

Living with HIV has increased my faith in Jesus and knowing, without him I could not have made it this far. Also keeping hope and great expectations, knowing that the best is yet to come and being able to reach my goals and accomplish new things. Just being all I was created to be because HIV is only 1% of my life and God is 99%. Also using wisdom to take my medication and be consistent with my doctor appointments. I will always have a life of a good legacy. P.S. Stay encouraged. African-American,Phoenix, Arizona. ID: ST-MIZ

I was diagnosed with HIV in 1999, doesn't matter how I got it, but I could have been you!! African American - Orangeburg, SC ID: ST-SCZ-S/-0037

This disease has given me the ability to open my mouth, feel like a super star, change like a butterfly, use all of my tools, study more, find the key to life, be creative, use the phone to call for support, and always stay in touch with my femininity. Hispanic - Houston, TX ID: ST-TXZ-S/-0269

Like they say, do not judge a book by its cover, or a person by their color either. If you are thinking I wasn’t the one that was supposed to get this illness…all this doll is going to express is be good to yourself, take care of yourself, and get educated about the illness, and don’t be afraid of a person that is being effected by HIV. Keep living, keep having safe fun and live life to the fullest! ID: ST-MIZ- Native-American , Phoenix, Arizona

I wish we could have more love given everywhere around the world. This would increase the amount of happiness and encourage sharing of food and other necessities needed to survive.

She wants to end poverty, violence, and her aim is to make a better world for everyone. She brings joy, hope, faith, love, peace and happiness. Remember to do your part to make this world a better place.

Don't we all sometimes wish we could go back to the time when we were kids, sound asleep in bed, without a care in the world?

This doll chose not to say anything.

If you have beliefs in healing, when you have HIV, beware of false Prophets of the world. Even they fall short of God’s glory. Don’t be discouraged, don’t be dismayed. Don’t give up, because Jesus cares for you. Others may be able to try to understand how your pain is inside, or your story that caused your disease, but reach out to those who take time, go the distance to listen to your story, and are true believers from above. I believe you will fly like an eagle, soar like a dove. Even when you are with your maker up above.

I have cirrhosis of the liver, diabetes, and high blood pressure. I bleed from my spleen and bowel. I live on $23 after bills are paid. This is for gas, food and personals, so I don’t eat very well. I was sexually assaulted by one clergy and raped by another. My husband has schizophrenia and tortured me to demand I swear "that there is no God". Violence can’t be mended! It must be prevented!

This doll wants to let the world know, “I survived child abuse.”

If my doll could talk she would tell you, I have HIV. HIV doesn't have me I am not my HIV. If you look at the virus you won't see me. You won't see the strong, loving, compassionate young lady I am. You must live life, don't let HIV live it for you.

It was nothing I did right, it just wasn't my path … however, it is my responsibility to advocate for my sistas with HIV/AIDS. I will be there for you and take your voice and your needs to the street. Love always …A Sister's Keeper.

Doll would say, “At first when I was diagnosed I was very devastated. Didn't want to live at that moment.” But I got educated on my illness and now realize that I am a woman that is God inspired, respected, and like the great Maya Angelou, I am truly a phenomenal woman. Empowered! So now I do my best to empower other women as myself.

This is who I want to become an Angel, I want to go out in the world and tell others about how God has kept me with HIV, and because after 16 years I'm still here. So believe me when I say that if you're living with HIV, and you feel that you're all alone stop that thought because you are not. Your "Angel" is there to guide you to fight for your soul. Reach out to her, your Angel is there to keep and guide, but also to save your soul because my Angel sure saved mine. My Angel has opened doors to heal to set free and to help guide you and keep you on the right path. Your worth the fight! Lady Ekundayo's Angel

Hello my name is Baby Jack, I'm from Hallandale, FL. I left Florida at the age of 10 to live with my father's mother. I went to school in Georgia. I have three kids all are over 18 years old. Well here's my story, I came back to Florida and started using crack cocaine. I got into a relationship and my man friend use to beat me all the time. I started going out making to buy my drugs, but I will never forget that night. I went out with this man, and we were drinking and after the drink I don't remember anything else. I woke up and found myself with nothing on.

If my doll could talk-she would say keep praying for a cure-and God bless all infected with HIV.

I can soar. My God now that I have eyes I can see the paths my heavenly father is passing me through. When my legs hurt I thank him for walking me through the other side. I don't bite my nails any more from fear because I now can summon up faith in God to do for me what I can't do for myself, like. guiding my thoughts , decisions and action to be like his image. And my arms to love him like he always loves me especially when I was lost, broken --I can soar to live to give and rest assure this world is a sure gift to play in.

Blinging on the outside but suffering in silence. Please love me for me and love me unconditionally.

My name is Lady Monfia. In my past I was infected with HIV but today I am not living with HIV, HIV is living with me. I know that I can not change what has happened to me in the past, but I have accepted my past for what it was worth. By doing so I can move on with my life so that I can live in today which is the present with respect and love for myself. I can build my future with self-dignity because I am no longer a victim. I am a survivor.

When you meet a person please use a condom. You and the person go and have test on HIV together. Talk about sex with the person. Find out what the person is all about. Lauderhill, FL

ALWAYS. It's good to always do the very best we can. Since we all know someday life as we know it will end. It's good to always say words which we know are true because that's what others will use when judging me and you. It's good to go through life with an open mind. Ft Lauderdale, FL

Cherish is my promise for life. I have full blown AIDS now for 6 years and every day I wake up is cherished. Every day I'm healthy and full of energy and even the bad days when I don't feel so well, "I'm alive". I have six living children and six grandchildren. I want to live to be their mommy and grandma! To live laeheim as we say in yiddish. Thank you God!

Hi my name is Christina. I am done running. I have no reason for guilt and shame. I am proud of myself. Now I am living and a survivor of HIV-AIDS. I can say now that I love life and I'm living life to the fullest. I have no more time to waste running away because life is always there. I'm done and staying strong celebrating new life as free as a bird. Lasting and staying strong. That's me Monica I'm proud to be ME.

First came shame, then abuse and rejection, then hopelessness, but after wanting and willing to live I sought out for awareness on how to live a long and happy healthier life with HIV.

I give glory to my God Jehovah! The world I come from is a world of disease and addictions. I was told "once a addict always and addict." Then I became HIV positive I was told that I had the monster and I believed that. In that world I was told there was no hope or cure! That was the biggest lie told. I am beautiful and today "I Rise" I am not the monster and there is HOPE!

I am Leotie, I am the woman that has been born through all of Deborah's past and present experiences. The changes that we have made has become a strong positive force with the universe. My HIV will not end my existance, it will only help me live a better life.

Be tested it helps. Ft Lauderdale, FL

My doll would say today I'm not depressed, I'm having a nice time just being around other people. Ft Lauderdale, FL

My name is Jacqueline Bass. I found out that I had HIV in 1995. It was hard for me, but with God's help I over came it and learned to accept that I have HIV. I can still live a healthy normal life.

I went into the hospital that is when I found out that I had HIV. But only God can help me by the grace of God. African American

My name is Chelsie and I'm here to tell you HIV is a disease that anybody can get. It does not discriminate. Little or big or good or bad. Please be safe than sorry.

I am happy that I am strong and healthy.

Hi my name is Faith Hope. I'm here to give you strength. Looking at me will put a smile upon your face because I am you and you are me. We give each other not only strength but hope and faith.

Hi my name is GIA. I am a warrior against HIV and AIDS. This is a battle that I've been fighting since 1998, and the battle continues. I have a message for all who suffer this disease, "I don't have an expiration date on me and neither do you. So as I go out into the world I want every one of you to follow me. I'll lead you to a happy, healthy, victory. I love you all....Forever GIA" Ft. Lauderdale, FL

Hello my name is Imani, born in Florida. I found out that I had the virus in 1991. Imani means Faith. I always carry Faith with me, living with the virus I got Faith there will be a cure today this disease is not a death sentence. Because of new medication to hold to your Faith. God bless us all. Love Imani

Hi My name is Hideaway and I've hidden from me for too long. I have a beauty inside, don't believe what I have pretended to be on the outside. I am hope and love and challenge and kind. I am here for me so I am able to be here for you. I love you.

When asked what her doll would say, she said, "Protect."

She is in pain all the time! Ft Lauderdale, FL

I am full of love and patience. Love to help you solve your problems.

Keep living and keep the faith.

Be strong, keep going, do the right thing to help you live a healthy life. Use condoms. Get a HIV test. There is life after HIV. Keep taking medications. Ft Lauderdale, FL

My doll would say that she wished that she didn't have HIV, and don't have to take a lot of medication for her to stay alive. Ft Lauderdale, FL.

I am Ronnie I am HIVand believe it or not I thank God I am alive. All you have to do is go to your doctor and take your medication. Don't do drugs cuz your meds don't work and also pray. I do thank God I am alive cuz I've been through it. But I didn't give up.

Behave yourself.

This doll had nothing to say.

Please don't judge me, by the way I dress. I need love understanding and friendship. Some may think I had HIV coming--I deserve it. Some may think that because of the way I dress, I'm not deserving--that I'm worthless. I'm a nothing. That's not true, I'm something and someone. African American Ft. Lauderdale, FL

This Doll doesn’t want to say anything.

I wished I would have listened. Ft Lauderdale, FL

I heard someone say something and I knew it wasn't right because it was very ungodly. Full of anger and dislike, but it was really shocking to look in the mirror and see that the foul mouth person was staring at me. I saw a man today whose walk was way off track because he choose the darkness instead of following the light, but when I turned around I found there was no one else. So it made me realize I was looking at myself. While standing on the riverbank my mind was in a daze. So I threw a rock in the water because I wanted to see some waves. I glanced at my reflection as the waves rolled by and it was there, that I noticed my problems started, with me, myself, and I. Ft Lauderdale, FL

"Never Give Up"

I am T.T. I am blessed by God who let me be here today, life is what you make but ask God to help me to carry on for he loves me and for that I thank him. Ft Lauderdale, FL

I have HIV; HIV does NOT have me! I'm not ashamed of what I live with, it just makes me stronger for those with so called, "Normal" lives should be the worried ones! No I am not a walking death threat!

I was very greedy from my childhood days. I always envied my friends who were rich. I liked to have good clothes, cell phone, rich boyfriend with a car, etc. Everyone cautioned me about my greediness but I did not listen to anybody. On the contrary, I was looking for an opportunity to run away from home to a big city and become a movie star. When I was in grade 9, I saw an advertisement in a newspaper for an audition. I had stolen money from my dad’s wallet and a gold chain of my mom’s and took the first train to that city. I met a lady on the train and became friends: she shared her food with me. When I woke up I saw myself in a dimly lit room, there were some men with cameras and women also. My clothes were torn and I felt terrible pain in my abdomen. I did not know for how long I was with those men as I had no clue where I was. When I became very weak and felt dizzy all the time they brought a doctor who advised them to transfer me to a hospital. There I was told that I was pregnant as well as HIV+. Since I had no place to go they sent me to a shelter home where I have been staying now. I tried to commit suicide by consuming rat poison. I survived but lost my child. Kolkata, India

When I became a mother at the age of 16, I realized there was no food for the child. My husband’s factory was closed and we had no money left. Our dependent in-laws and the Two of us survived on charity food three times a week. But the baby had to starve most of the time as I did not have any breast milk to feed him. Our neighbor used to work in a city, she convinced my husband to allow me to go with her and she would fix a job for me. Every month I would send the money and after a year I would come back. Since there was no other option so I went with her and she took me to a big city and sold me to a brothel owner. When I realized it was too late. I tried to resist in vain. There I had to entertain 3 to 4 men every night and that was how I got infected with this disease. Once there was a police raid and they sent me to Kolkata because I am a Bengali. I do not know whether I will be able to see my child at all before I die. Kolkata, India

When my father left my mother, she was 30 years old with 4 kids. Being the eldest one, I understood how difficult it was to arrange food, clothing and school fees for all of us I had to drop out from school and started working as a maid to an elderly lady in a nearby house. They used to have a lot of guests. Most to them were good barring one uncle who used to give me chocolates but I did not like his eyes. Once all the family members went to a wedding and no one was there except the old grandma and I when that uncle dropped by. That night he abused me more than once and next month I missed my period. No one believed me, they all blamed me and my mother was helpless. She went to a social worker in our area and that lady arranged for a shelter home for me. I was only 15 years old any my body was not ready for a baby and I had a miscarriage. I bled like anything when the doctors advised for a blood transfusion. One of the bottles was contaminated with HIV and that was how I got it. Now I am 20 years old and I am not scared of dying because I think I died twice before, once when I was abused and then when I was diagnosed. But at times I feel lonely, alone and away from my mother and my family. What was my fault? Kolkata, India

I was born due to the love between my mother Michelle and my gay Uncle Dan. If everyone in the world could be like them (Michelle is a black woman and Dan is white) and they both are of different cultures. Life together they create a better world to live in with this virus called HIV

I heard the story of A Paper Bag Princess, from a caregiver. It was the same story of my life, only difference was the princess of the story was so strong and empowered that she had the guts to reject the prince and started her life afresh. But here I the foolish girl was abandoned by my prince after he gifted me this incurable disease. The person with whom I left my home, parents and leaving behind a very comfortable life turned out to be an imposter, I trusted him blindly when he promised to marry me but instead he used to bring his friends along and forced me to serve alcohol and to dance in front of them. I had to please those men almost every night. I felt so naked even with clothes on! One day I felt sick and no one was around so I cried out for help and fortunately a police car was passing, they rescued me and sent me to a hospital and there I was diagnosed. I did not have any idea what was the meaning of HIV+ but this much I knew that I am going to die soon. I pray to God to grant me enough time and strength so that I can unmask that man before I die. Kolkata, India

I was abused by my stepfather when I was a teenager. When I got married, once I felt sick and had to do some blood tests. That was the time when I was diagnosed as HIV. My husband and in-laws abandoned me so did my parents. I became homeless and made the local railway station my home. After a couple of days the police arrested me and put me in a women’s shelter home where I am receiving treatments and attending the tailoring classes. I would like to make an appeal to the mothers, please do not abandon your child in case she has to go through my kind of situation. Was it my fault? Kolkata, India

Doll doesn't say anything. Baltimore, MD

Doll has no comments.

I was named in memory of a friend who passed away August 30, 2003. She was very aware and active concerning women’s issues especially HIV/AIDS. Barbara was loved by a lot of people and is missed very much. Hennepin, MN

Pretty in Pink-I stand for all my sisters who came into my life that had HIV/AIDS. They touched me so much with their stories, kindness and love. I will never forget them, each year I light a candle and say a prayer and call each ones name. I'm in the fight to find a cure.

It isn't what it looks like. NC

Strong women can be strong leaders. It is the only way women will gain any ground in the HIV/AIDS epidemic. Also by being instrumental in addressing the contributing factors to the HIV/AIDS epidemic women become a powerful force in systemic change overall.

I'm one in a million. There's not another one like me. Take me as I am.

My name is Silkie I was created and named by a six year old named Whitney. She loves beautiful things. She designed my dress so that I would look like an angel who can fly. She sewed it herself since she learned to sew in school. Whitney goes to Waldorf School which has a handwork program. She does not know anything about being HIV+ or having AIDS so her life is still very care free and happy like a child’s life should be. She is very healthy and a blessing from GOD to be around. NC

This doll has a simple message "I would like a cure" Cleveland, OH

My kids are my life and for them I keep my hope alive. Lives in Clinton Twp., MI

I have survived AIDS and cancer and I am still kicking.

It is better to be proactive in life than reactive…HIV is preventable, "Get educated, Get tested, Go tell a friend."

Bell suffers through her smile. Although her exterior expresses joy and strength, inside she feels the shame and guilt of being HIV positive.

If my doll could talk, she would say I am a woman with a purpose for my life. I am a strong woman with 3 boys. I yet have to continue to fight this race. I was a wife, a friend, a mother, a sister, an aunt, a daughter but I yet stand. This disease has only made me, but it will NEVER break Me!! My voice also speaks for those who cannot speak for themselves. HIV is Just a part of me! Black woman lives in Summerville, S.C.

If you only knew the daily pain I go through, taking all kinds of pills, some red some blue. If they cut my ADAP I will stay sick too!

This doll represents an outreach effort in an orphanage in Cape Town, South Africa. In July of 2006, a University of Michigan student agreed to take some doll forms to South Africa where she was going to study for 5 months. When unforeseen difficulties scuttled the original plan for the dolls, Lindsay came up with another one. These are her words "In September I went to the orphanage bearing gifts of dolls and valuable information. By using colorful posters as visual aids, I explained to the girls about HIV/AIDS. Being that the girls were between the ages of 3 to 13 and had very short attention spans, I kept my presentation brief. Then it was time for the fun to begin. I told them about the STITCHES campaign and said that they could decorate the dolls to remind them to be safe and careful in the future. The rest of the evening flew by in a fury of feathers, glue, and beads.Sure, some of the dolls met an unceremonious end; being covered in glue and abandoned by the former artists. However, most of the girls had a wonderful time. One of the dolls even had a hand-written sign on her back that read I have HIV. Give me hugs, not drugs. Upon leaving the orphanage, I hung the posters on the wall and admired many beautiful dolls. I left that night feeling hopeful. For if just one of those girls remembers some small fact about my presentation or decorating the dolls, then the global conflict that is HIV/AIDS is one step closer to being resolved." This STITCHES artist was a small child in an orphanage in S. Africa, where AIDS is wiping out entire generations of people. Her innocence and her pain has a voice in this doll. Listen, if you dare. Help, if you can.

I have HIV. And I have had it for a long time, 7 years.

Be safe – take care of you. Don’t put yourself at risk; unsafe sex, using IV drugs. I used to think I was invincible but that wasn’t the case of course. Now I live the best way I can and try to have hope for the future. Memphis, Tennessee

AIDS Diagnosis: December 19, 1995 Date of Death: November, 2005 She walks on a path winding and full of changes but wide enough to accommodate friends. The girl has no knowledge of strangers – only magicians. She carries the world in her hand; he holds mysteries in his pocket. Sometimes they journey alone, sometimes together. Her cup of security is priceless – encrusted with the jewels of family, washed in the silver and gold of friends. They are her Holy Grail. The key of wisdom she wears around her neck resting near her heart for it is the Key to Heaven and the kingdom is within. Water of grace, the girl bears it in pots fashioned from the healing clay of mercy; she submerges herself in the black depths of mystery and walks on that ocean’s bottom, maintaining her life by breathing the air of forgiveness innate to the Creator’s womb. She meets the bear of romance with respect. Pulling berries from her pocket, she offers a gift. Standing bear sings her the song of power and they part. The Cobra lays coiled in the center of her path. She kneels humbly before it, honouring the mystery and power it possesses. The serpent strikes her heart, but only lightly grazes her skin as though anointing her with a kiss. The wall of death is high and deep, but transparent. She sees into the world beyond and is not afraid. Laughing, she drops the cloth of flesh and dons the feather fabric preferred by Spirit. Without restriction her soul flies. Deb Runions is a Tennessean, a Democrat, a student of theosophy, a writer, a teacher, and an AIDS activist. She is also a daughter, sister, widow, mother and grandmother. Her message is this: AIDS is here to heal-not just those of us who have the infection but American society as a whole.

HIV has given me the ability or tools to see life in a different light. To see that the things that are important are stopping to smell the flowers, staying strong, finding support, remembering family and friends, work hard for what you want, and always show love. I know everyone's journey with HIV is a special story and so I have shared mine through the years. I have learned the key to life is a positive attitude, faith and God as your foundation.

I am cleaning up my life, taking charge, calling my kids and going back to school so that I can have my kids back with me. Flying like a butterfly on the winds of live with God's help.

Upon my journey of life I took an HIV/AIDS test. November 1995 my life changed for the better because the seeds of growth started coming my way. If a person waters their garden, fruit will grow. If not, it will die. That is how HIV/AIDS is seeking knowledge. Don't be afraid to ask about the beauty of life, such as: sex, condoms, drugs, etc. Education is the key!!!

Feeling little people inside my body eating me up!! Ugly, Sad Wild, Crazy, and I Cannot find myself Searching, Destroy, HIV bandit lady. The good is to help others around the world. Safe sex. People around the world, take care of yourselves.

When I have to stop working due to my illness, where am I going to get the money I need for Rent? Food? Telephone? My cats? When the time comes for me to "retire", how am I going to pay of my credit card bills? My dental care? "Please show me the money!"

When I learned of the HIV disease, I was sad, unhappy, and kept asking "why me?" But I have learned that Life does go on. With the support of my family and my faith in God, I am able to go through life now with Hope of someday saying, "I am not sick."

My faith carried me through when the darkness of this disease took over my body. It was like hiding under a tree and that was not enough. The telephone did not stop ringing. You could have just sawed me in half, put me up for sale. But nobody wanted me. After you sawed me in half - to make sure I was dead - unloaded the bullets in me until the gun was empty. My lips on my face were so big. I could not tell you enough. Until one day I remembered that the Lord loves me. No matter what, He thinks I am a rose and when all else fails I can always pray or read the instructions.

She shows the Christian life I had always lived. If my ex-husband (a minister) and I had never divorced, I would never have this illness. But I would rather I had this and be an example to others. And, so my 3 sons will always take precautions.

My name is Yvone. I died in jail because they would not give me access to health care if only I knew. I fought the good fight, I keep my faith, my journey is complete.(In remembrance of my Aunt RIP Lavonder)

I was once a beautiful Disco Lady. Met a man - married him. He put his dirty hands all over me. Now I got HIV. I have to wear glasses cause I'm going blind. But I still like to party. I will live with this and not die. Praise God!

In life you have to take the good with the bad. Although my illness is bad I can still find and have good things in my life. On my back you see some feelings I have on a day to day basis. Some good, some bad. The black gown represents the dark feelings. But in the front you see all the good things I still have or can look to for happiness. You can look forward to...the holidays at home with your kids and family...a fishing trip...walking the dog...counting the start...calling your friends or a counsellor...keep your heart open to love...smell the roses. Just live and love life.

I wish I could just take this garden tool and take out all of this disease from my body. I am so tired of taking medicine and doing various laboratory tests. However, by God's grace he has kept me alive for 13 years with this disease. I know He and angels are watching over me.

My doll refuses to lose herself to the affects of HIV disease. She is an individual in her own right and won’t be stopped by anyone. HIV disease has impacted so many lives in the U.S. and abroad…We have to empower ourselves and find our own strength to beat it.

Good Gracious is the name my grandparents, Floyd and Ella, gave me as a child. It is only God’s good grace.

HIV has made me a strong woman – made me more aware of how many Latinas are really infected – how many people are walking around infected. But one simple blood test can save you – like it did for me. Thank God. For that simple HIV test will save your life.

When I was diagnosed with HIV I didn’t think it affected me.

Title Carpe Diem Diva HIV Diagnosis: December 1995 If my doll could talk about me and my experience she would use many different adjectives to describe my journey through this disease. First and foremost, I thank HIV for teaching me strength and resilience. I have learned along the way that you have to be true to yourself and never let a moment go by that you have not seized. A am an achiever, a nurturer, a mother, a sister, a daughter, and educator and a scholar. I am alive and celebrate the fact that God has blessed me with my children. This was the signal that let me know that HIV was a “life” sentence not a “death” sentence. Make the most of your life and let your legacy be something you can be proud of. I have a sign in my classroom that says “Time, the one thing you cannot recycle.” I use this to motivate me and remind myself that I must seize the day, “Carpe Diem,” for it will come no more. Make the most out of life, for it is truly a gift.

Always remember you’re still a lady. You have to put yourself first, learn to nurture your spirit, find peace and strength, and most of all, LOVE YOU!!!

My doll holds a red ribbon – the symbol for AIDS Awareness. When I see a red ribbon it reminds me I’m not alone. It reminds me that my friends affected and infected share in the fight against HIV – share in the survival of HIV and our hared experiences are the ties that bind us.

“Precious” is what I realize “I am.” There is nothing more fulfilling than inner peace. Form my spiritual health I have learned to love myself first. This virus teaches me to be patient, giving, honest and respectful to other people and myself. My mission in life now is to live long and joyous. If I must live this way “I will live it positively.”

Title Zoe-Life HIV Diagnosis: February 1, 1987 My doll wears glasses because HIV has affected my eyes. It has allowed me to see how precious time spent with those you love really is. My doll wears a cross because HIV has affected my faith. It is my faith that has given me strength. My doll wears her heart on for everyone to see because HIV has affected my heart. It holds all the love and memories of the friends I have lost to HIV and those still living with it…walking beside me in this journey.

In the 23 years since I became infected, life has not stopped. I have watched my beautiful daughter grow-up, graduate college, become a mother and I am a grandmother. I never thought I would see my 50th birthday. But each new day is a blessing!! Texas

I am precious, hello I love people and I am a little shy. I wish everyone could be as one. Love and peace to the world.

I am a 16 year old girl living with HIV. I have had it since I was born and this is a hard year of my life. My mother died and I have been sick so I'm struggling with school. Despite this I am trying to stay positive and endure. You endure too.

A written story is not available for this doll.

Please love me; I represent your wife, your daughter, your sister, your friend, your soul mate. Understand I represent YOU!! This is part of America. Virginia Beach, VA

Doll Submitted: March 31, 2003 I’m grateful to be alive! I have met so many good people who have AIDS or are HIV+, some of these are still around, many have already gone to be with God, who loves us all so much. May God bring us all together again in joy and health that never end.

In the beginning I tried living with HIV As time went by I felt I am dying with HIV Along came the cocktails The pill gave new hope It didn’t take long To realize For me it was false hope Side effects Too many to count Side effects Wearing me down Cutting me up Spitting me out It moves round and round Spinning me upside down I try to climb high Only to fall In a deep dark hole Making me slow. This HIV rollercoaster Has taken its’ toll This virus is out of control Please I beg you I want off this rollercoaster Please I beg you Give me peace. Caucasian, woman who lives in Glendale, Arizona ID: ST-MIZ

Beautiful but, lonely. Guys love to talk but, they don't always stick around. Cause I come with a package called, HIV. Detroit, MI ID: ST-MIZ-T/-0033

Issue: My life is gone down the road-because my childhood no longer exists. Improve: I am improving because I am in school and will be graduating and helping babies. I would encourage others to stay in school, always stay positive and keep your head up. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Love is everything to me, so what does love mean to you? This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Here’s to the crazy ones. The rebels. The troublemakers. Stay different! This is a Caucasian-Hispanic teenage girl who lives in MI

If my doll could talk she would speak of peace and love. She would tell everyone that they are Beautiful one way or another because everyone is deserving of love. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Beauty comes from within not out. This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

If my doll could talk she would say she has no friends and she is very heartbroken. She says, “I wish I had friends and I want people to like me!” She wishes she were cool enough to have friends instead of a heart broken. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Friendship is forever. “Our baby days” means starting out fresh as best friends. New beginnings This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

I want a cat. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI.

Her doll would say, “Don’t bury another friend.” This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Doll is speechless This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

I’m Jenll and I have a best friend. I love her and were gonna be best friends forever. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

There is always a better day to look forward to. But you have to remember every thing happens for a reason, but nothing happens for no reason. One by land two by sea right there in front of me don’t ever give up, because there is always someone out there for you. Just remember don’t ever give up on life. God bless you This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

She is a cute girl and sweet girl too. She is love and friends girl. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Mandy says, “Hi, how are you?” “I love all people no matter what they have done.” This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

Nature is beauty –let’s work together to keep it that way. This is a Hispanic woman who lives in MI. She is one of the teenage girls mentor.

This doll is a doll that has been through lots of things, but has come to her peace and trying to get her self together. This doll is a doll that is a changed person. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Gerri loves dolphins and she saves them. She helps them live by making sure they are not trapped.(Gerri is the Dolphin). This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

My name is Rose, sometimes I hurt myself when I am upset. Everyone has a story, we all have hurt feelings sometimes, but you have to remember God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. This is a Caucasian teenage girl who lives in MI

I love living life the safe way. This is a teenage girl who lives in MI

Peace and love no matter where you are you will always be you, no matter how far. This is an African-American, Native American, Puerto Rican teenage girl who lives in MI

I made it through a struggle so can you. Stay strong and smile This is an African-American teenage girl who lives in MI

At one time life seemed hopeless. Today I look at life with different eyes. Life is what I make it. Today I am successful. "Never give up!" Hispanic-New York

Today I'm a better person because of my experiences because I found God, Love and Support. Today I'm a better woman, with my own family, self-love, and 100% confident woman! Bronx, NY

We have to all get along. Life is not promised to us tomorrow.

Doll is speechless! Hispanic, Bronx, NY

Doll is speechless!

Love me hold me talk to me.

God Bless everyone!

My doll says she loves the person she is today.

Don't lose yourself. Bronx, NY